So I finally I found time to write the story about Shennika. Not that she was less important, but she came last on the list chronologically and the time I spent with her was not that intensive as with Beep* and Fren.
And still intense with Fren it was the moment my eyes caught Shennika’s eyes. So with Shennika I took my time to see what it was going to mean. Along the way it unfortunately appeared that I suddenly fell short of time! That outlines the story.
So I grabbed some old musical fragments - I have a 1000 good ones and more of them - and picked the ones that gave wings to my feelings for Shennika. A funny process, cause it really works. Fragments from the 80’s, 90’s and 2000 glued together and there you go: there is my musical image of Shennika. I had one song in mind, but it became two songs. I didn’t want to show the world a very nice girl and take her out in the same song. I sighed, cause it’s two times more work, but then I always take the effort for something valuable. Two songs it will be.
As a musician I grab deep in my feelings to get the story right and go through a lot of details. When I sing about myself, that seems right. But when I sing about someone else, it feels out of proportion. That person may feel I make things bigger than they were.
But.
What I experienced with this mini-album is that it is a very beautiful story in its own right. Putting the situations I was in with her in perspective, in order, I experienced that I apparently oversaw some gestures, even then! A girl that follows, that is responsive, that covered my ass. These three elements were new to me! I remember element by element. But together in a row they amplify each other to a bigger meaning and correspond to a deeper feeling. And that surprised me..! In my urge to classify people and situations I describe a superficial image of what a person should mean to me. Wrong.
I remember my brother called me 20 years ago that he was afraid to die of some disease I will not mention now and he told me he loved me. And that night I had a very heavy dreamlike experience, unbearable it was. We are so connected with our family and friends without being aware of the depth of it on a daily basis. So when we really fear to lose someone, we experience the full depth.
Now with Shennika I felt not that deeply as with my brother of course. I just started to know her. But it was very promising to me. Grabbing deep in my feelings I brought out the full depth. And that touches me delicately. That makes Shennika real to me and valuable. I only hope that she will appreciate my gesture and effort. Cause she is a special girl, open and with a lot of sweetness.
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