• Amplitude

    WHAT = LIFE

  • Honesty is like Mathmatics. 20 Year old UB boy is as honest as the equation itself. Even the punks don’t know that kind of honesty. It’s a compass for sure, but its amplitude goes beyond a boy’s power. And what about the Child in him that UB carries around?

  • September 1983  UB boy doesn’t trust his feelings. That way he lived as a boy and it lead him to this awful place. So he fully trusts his thinking and calculates his way through life. It’s very hard this way to trim the amplitude though. One miscalculation and the balance drops to depths no human can bear. What about 1984? Can he hold this any longer?

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  • December 5th 1983  Although his girlfriend is very sweet and supporting, she can’t live up to UB boy’s expectations. I guess no human soul can. So UB boy keeps scanning the schoolyard for colourful girls. Is it worth waiting for them to grow or will he be gone far away the moment they finally see?

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  • January 1984  UB boy becomes Reckless & Must Have, where did I hear this later in Life? No-one will get ever what he wants this way. But hey, at a certain point, that is all what’s left for any mortal being to do. So he claims one of the colourful girls that feels very well and is not unwilling. But is this the way to go?

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  • February 1984  Even UB boy can’t shield himself from the sound of the churchbell. Uncountable fragments of feelings scatter all over him and he let’s it rain. They must seep in through little cracks gradually forming in the shield.

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  • March 1984  To UB boy the worst principle in life to this day is ‘eat or be eaten’. One example of disillusioning features under the hood of life. He feels forced to comply if he wants to take a next step. If so, he rather eats himself.

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  • May 1984  It strikes UB boy that when things seem paradoxically, they turn out to be the right thing to do. Well, very nice to know! So doing the bad thing of eating another person, is the right thing to do?!?!

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  • What Life = Amplitude 1983-1984
    Correcting the amplitude
    Down, down, I'm still going up. Near the ground, staring in emptyness. My spirit keeps growing, a tumour. How bright I grow, how smart I am. Deep, deep, I’m still going on. In the mist, staring in water. My body keeps glowing, an endless match. How bright I glow, how smart I am. Each stripe on my face, a correction. The less I care, the more I dare. Each stripe on my face, a correction to keep me from uncontrolled actions. Death is an answer, for it completes all expectations. Suicide, an amplitude too high. Each stripe on my face, to keep the amplitude low. There is no intention at all, but what about '84?

    A normal day
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    You're mine as much as yours
    I’m alive in the human world as human as any being. Walking through The Hague, the scenery my life circles. It’s my city as it is yours. I crash in it as I crash in you. Walking through its veins, throbbing forwards. You’re mine as much as yours. I crash in you as I crash myself.

    Let the rain fall down
    Feelings in this sound. Scattering uncountable fragments of feelings. I always use an umbrella when they rain, cause they're too broad to fit in my line of life. The churchbell originates this sound as he used to do at the roots of my life. I didn't know an umbrella then. I was just a little square.

    I won't be eaten, I can myself
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    The Paradox
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