• God

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  • Here you can find all UB's stories where he sees the guiding hand of the great Mechanic, or shall I say the great Organic that he freely choses to call God.

  • WHO CAN ANSWER THE GREAT QUESTIONS OF LIFE?  Is it Mark Rutte, the Dutch prime minister, is it Nelson Mandela, Ghandi, my shrink, the oldest human being on Earth? Who can answer the great questions of life when I’m in need? Who invented life anyway? That we must eat each other in order to live and thrive. I was born, created, as a result of my parent’s drives. It initially wasn’t their idea to procreate through sex. I hope they liked each other’s warmth that cold night of the 27th of December 1962. But this procreating mechanism existed long before they were born, it is ancient. So is it who or what? Is this mechanism together with all other mechanisms as nature’s laws: a being, or is it the work of a being or a being itself that just is. >

  • > WHY GOD  In this way of thinking I can’t escape from coming up with God or nature. God comes up first, cause I had a question I hoped someone could answer. Nature doesn't appear to me as a man or a woman that speaks. And science is only that what we know. And we only seem to know that what is proven. But then, when I have this question, I don’t need to know. I simply need reassurance, warmth, approval to go further. That I am on the right track. I like science though. It is amazing to see how it all interconnects and works. The works of that being, is that its preview? >>

  • >> WHAT IS GOD  So the Mechanism, the Works, the Image of that. All Matter and all that matters and all that is not included: I call that God. When I was younger I wanted to find my own name for this phenomenon. Otherwise I would seem to be religious and so follow the way of thinking and living of people that abide by the rules of the Bible. But then I thought: Hey, I’m free to choose whatever feels right to me. I am raised in the western world, so why should I call it Buddha, or any other exotic name. Nobody can claim the name God. And my choice is no coincidence.

  • IS GOD A WHAT OR A WHO  So, is he a what or a who? Lately it appeared to me that God can be a who after all, even scientifically! Although I don’t need the proof. I don’t need to know, but to feel, remember. Okay, then it is not scientifically, but logically. I see myself as a part of a whole. I’m a member of humanity, that is a member of life, that is a member of matter or/and energy, that is a member of anything as opposed to ‘nothing’. In short: I am a member and am therefore a part. A part that lives. A living part as opposed to a stone.

  • So, as even a part can be a living being, why can’t the sum of a number of these parts, or even the total sum of these parts be a living being? It may be that life is standard and that ‘stones’ just belong to the building blocks, lower in hierarchy as you wish. Seeing it from this angle, I can call God a being. That sounds a bit silly, as if a single cell of a man figures out that a human is a living being as well. Okay, so I can speak to the man or woman. I can address myself to HIM!

  • ... And to conclude, if life is higher in hierarchy than a stone and God is the total sum of of all that lives, then he must be the Soul of the Universe..!

  • Donnée par Dieu

    Am I anxious to step in God’s shoes and pick my own woman. And so will arrogance be punished?

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  • Indeed, what withholds me to step forward? All I have to do is believe. Do I doubt that our souls belong together? Does Beep*’s soul match better with someone else who fits better in her life? And are there so many more souls to match my soul and that fit better in my life? Or am I anxious to step in God’s shoes and pick my own woman. And so will arrogance be punished? Yep, I think that is the point. Who am I to pick what I want. I always did, worked for me certainly. And that made me arrogant and that made me fail & fall.  >


  • > I then got silent and accepted what God gave me. Yet still, I don’t feel completely satisfied. I do wish to make my own choices, with respect of course. And that re-spect - "back-look" - looks back to the people surrounding me & the world around me. I won’t ever mean to satisfy my needs and so choose egoistically. Thus is a choice up to me, or up to God? Well, as he created me out of anything available in this Universe and since he is Its Soul as well, and as he sculpted me in his image: My choice should be His choice. >>

  • >> I could not have recognized Beep* as my soulmate if I wasn’t composed the way I am. And if she was not sculpted the way she was - by Him - with those final touches here and there, I would not have ever recognized her either. So in a sense, Me* picking Her* and Her* picking Me* is God* picking himself. Okay, that is settled haha. Given by God - Donnée par Dieu - is the same as giving myself what feels natural.

  • So giving myself what doesn’t come naturally, but what I force to come my way, won’t work. And God is so generous to say: If you know better than me, walk your way. And that is the trial and error path we all know so well. Eventually we come back on the natural path. But not before we conquer ourselves. As Jaap Visscher told: "He who conquers himself is stronger than he who takes a city".

  • But then, since God loves me and loves each and everyone of us, he will always listen to me seriously and sense my deepest wishes. All I have to do is pronounce them. So now I finally became a man in his enchanting Garden, I hereby give it serious thought in why I should step forward and indeed ask God for what I truly wish for no scientific reason but...

  • Give my Soul


    In my life there are things I rather avoid time and again. Consequences I rather not want to face. Cause I can’t bring up what I guess is needed. Is it a lack of confidence or am I plain lazy? In this case by not stepping forward, I agree to give Beep* away to Barry or Ronald. You know, those guys that better meet the requirements...

     

  • what it needs


    They are not smart, but are the average kind a man women want. And so I degrade myself Ánd Beep*... I know these moments that I give up. As a child I already had those. So embarrassing. Giving achievements away and settle for less and Why..?

     

  • It takes a man to carry that stone

     
    Take full responsibility. Guided by God, or whatever power you believe in.

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  • I’m aware that the lyrics of this song can be confusing. I too have to trace the logical steps now and then. When is it the man that acts and when is it the child, or the Child with a capital C?

    It is the Child with a capital C that is hurt and cries for nourishment. It is young UB Boy as a child that carries and drags around the crying Child and that eventually hands it over to the mighty Sea. It is UB Boy at the same age Jesus died that picked up the Child from the Sea and that took it by the hand.

  • Socially fully competent to do so, spiritually perhaps not fully matured. Once picked up, it didn’t mean the skies had cleared. Now as a socially competent man UB Boy still kept carrying and dragging the Child around. And circumstances later in life forced UB Boy to lead and guide his two real children alone as a real father. Together with the nourishing support of their mother. But after his father died something shifted. Somehow his father cleared a spot now for UB to take that place and stand upright.

  • As his father, UB Boy started the song by taking the acoustic guitar, singing his lines and blowing the mouth organ without further accompaniment. So UB Boy wants and needs to be a man, UB Man. He wants to finally stop dragging around Children. To be able to Believe UB Boy had to overcome his lack of believe and take this last hurdle. All he had to do was to pronounce his wish that is His command. To do so UB Boy again had to acknowledge a higher being and accept his place in the universe as just part of a whole. The Sea wasn’t a high being enough anymore. And to make a long story short he ended up with God. Even a Man is a child in the eyes of God.

  • The Father. But a man will not get it in his system to let the Child carry that last stone. Even though it has the weight of a feather! So it takes the responsibility of a man to carry that stone! And that is the only act needed to become a man. Take full responsibility. Guided by God, or whatever power you believe in.

    Part 1: The sea will look after me
    Part 2: We've come to take the child
    Part 3: A walk on the Pier
    Part 4: A man asking God